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January (Entry#5)
Jan. 28th, 2018 04:18 pmWell there are still a couple days left in January, but man this months has kicked my ass, and I'm anticipating it just being over already, please and thank you very much.
I have not answered any of your comments on my latest post ... I am still processing and very much overwhelmed and don't know what to say. However I do appreciate your comments and sentiments. I have emailed back and forth with her but it has sort of petered out and I don't know if I will end up actually speaking to my brother or not. She claims that he barely speaks English, but she also claims he is willing to talk to me on the phone. I may get a bug up my but an do an end run around her - now that I know what city he is in and have the name he uses, I could find him without her (even though his Vietnamese name is common enough that there are like 50 people with that name in that city alone). But for now, I am sort of letting it rest. I am relieved to know he is alive and well. Sad, but not surprised, to learn that my mother died several years ago. She did not give me any details. And appalled (and yet still not surprised) to learn that my father actually got in touch with my brother 20+ years ago and didn't tell me. He offered to bring my brother to the states, but only my brother - not his new wife who was pregnant. So my brother, being, apparently, a decent human being, said No. Yet somehow managed to get himself with his pregnant wife to the states anyway. I don't know how. This girl is not a very detailed communicator.
I am officially changing my Pilates 100x goal to 50x, and also broadening it to include pretty much any sort of workout other than walking. So basically Exercise 50 times. So far I've only managed 4 times in January, which is why I dropped the goal from 100 to 50. I figure it's better to aim for something doable than just give up, and 50 times a year isn't so terrible, even if it's not so fabulous.
I have not answered any of your comments on my latest post ... I am still processing and very much overwhelmed and don't know what to say. However I do appreciate your comments and sentiments. I have emailed back and forth with her but it has sort of petered out and I don't know if I will end up actually speaking to my brother or not. She claims that he barely speaks English, but she also claims he is willing to talk to me on the phone. I may get a bug up my but an do an end run around her - now that I know what city he is in and have the name he uses, I could find him without her (even though his Vietnamese name is common enough that there are like 50 people with that name in that city alone). But for now, I am sort of letting it rest. I am relieved to know he is alive and well. Sad, but not surprised, to learn that my mother died several years ago. She did not give me any details. And appalled (and yet still not surprised) to learn that my father actually got in touch with my brother 20+ years ago and didn't tell me. He offered to bring my brother to the states, but only my brother - not his new wife who was pregnant. So my brother, being, apparently, a decent human being, said No. Yet somehow managed to get himself with his pregnant wife to the states anyway. I don't know how. This girl is not a very detailed communicator.
I am officially changing my Pilates 100x goal to 50x, and also broadening it to include pretty much any sort of workout other than walking. So basically Exercise 50 times. So far I've only managed 4 times in January, which is why I dropped the goal from 100 to 50. I figure it's better to aim for something doable than just give up, and 50 times a year isn't so terrible, even if it's not so fabulous.
