May and June (Entry 13)
Jul. 8th, 2018 04:35 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
geowench So in May, E and I went to Fl to meet my brother and his family. I don't even know what to say - it was so strange and so emotional and so very overwhelming. He is a lot like me - quiet, bad at small talk, introverted - plus he barely speaks English. So communication was difficult. Still, we talked quite a lot and I learned so much - good things like my mother telling him to continue to try and find me the day she died, and bad things like my mother was jailed for FOUR YEARS when she returned to Vietnam for her association with the enemy (ie my father). I can't even process it all and it's been two months. It was so so awkward, but so much goodwill. They tried so hard to make us welcome, including making us 2 huge seafood feasts. He gave me a pair of jade and gold earrings that had been my mother's. It's like the whole world has skidded completely off its axis and I'm walking around in a fog. At the same time, nothing in my life has actually changed all that much - well except that I can now expect my brother to FT me pretty much every Saturday night. And I can barely even comprehend that I just wrote that sentence. This has broken me wide open - I am a pulsating blubbering mess, just sort of trying to get through each day and trying to heal this wide open wound in my chest. I can barely breathe, but I still have to live my every day life. It is such a profound thing that has happened and I have no way to even begin to express any of it.
E is in Japan, and when he returns we will be able to apply for our visas to stay in Prague for a year (a little less actually). That whole thing has been so hugely frustrating. Czech bueracracy is a thing of beauty. The Czech embassy website says one thing and the people we talk to at the embassy say another thing and the people who are supposed to be helping us say a a third thing. It's all so second world/ex-Soviet. We're supposed to be there Sept 1, but I suspect that Oct 1 is more likely. But we'll get there eventually.
I was up to 44 books when I last posted, but now I'm up to 64, and I don't think I have the energy to post all 20 - just friend me on goodreads, I've got my challenge public and you can see what I've ready this year. I am, of course, geowench on goodreads.
I wish you good people would post. I have learned to accept that I don't have the energy a lot of the time, and especially now, to reach out and phone people, but I absolutely love reading about your lives, whether it's email, FB, or this bizarre online journaling.
E is in Japan, and when he returns we will be able to apply for our visas to stay in Prague for a year (a little less actually). That whole thing has been so hugely frustrating. Czech bueracracy is a thing of beauty. The Czech embassy website says one thing and the people we talk to at the embassy say another thing and the people who are supposed to be helping us say a a third thing. It's all so second world/ex-Soviet. We're supposed to be there Sept 1, but I suspect that Oct 1 is more likely. But we'll get there eventually.
I was up to 44 books when I last posted, but now I'm up to 64, and I don't think I have the energy to post all 20 - just friend me on goodreads, I've got my challenge public and you can see what I've ready this year. I am, of course, geowench on goodreads.
I wish you good people would post. I have learned to accept that I don't have the energy a lot of the time, and especially now, to reach out and phone people, but I absolutely love reading about your lives, whether it's email, FB, or this bizarre online journaling.
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Date: 2018-07-12 02:48 am (UTC)I am the worst about posting. :(
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Date: 2018-07-13 01:33 am (UTC)